Tuesday, February 5, 2013

winter weary

Slow It Down by The Lumineers on Grooveshark

 don't you frown when you're feeling like that,
only love can dig you out of this

It turned into a perfect snowy scene for a bit around here.
This was one of those warm days right before it all melted. So quiet, all you could hear was the sound of plump birds rustling about in the brambles around this little semi-frozen lake.
Fresh air is good for the soul.

I dug into my cape collection for the first time this season, vintage and navy..two of my favorites!
Doubled up on the tights, an open weaved textured pair over basic thick ones- both in mint. A bit out of my usual comfort zone. I have what I like to call a "funny" bone in my right leg that curves strangely. My mom asked the Dr.about it growing up and he said they would have to "break it to make it perfect." No thanks.  But now I usually wear dark tights and try to not draw attention to my legs, I'm working on letting go of silly hang ups like that and embracing my quirks. Next it's my crooked little teeth haha! It's weird, I really love "flaws" on everyone else. 
My berets and beanies are coming in handy lately. I straightened my hair for the first time in forever and realized I have a Scarjo circa '03 mullety thing going on..ah the joys of tirelessly growing out a pixie cut.

 falling snow is the best

This winter has been taking it's toll on me and I finally went to the Dr. for a check up for my thyroid(Hashimotos) and general run down-ness. I was diagnosed at around 10 but I haven't been treating it, or myself very well for that matter. Blood work was involved..needles are the worst. As someone who is afraid of going its a small victory in itself, I kept putting it off.  I've been sad and anxious, and just haven't felt like my true self for far too long. A melancholy world. The hardest part for me was admitting that I can't fix everything on my own..and not being embarrassed about things I can't control.
 I'm headstrong and independent. And maybe a bit eccentric and aloof in general. Letting people in on how I'm feeling has always been tough for me. One of my goals this year is to take better care of myself. I'm on the right course and looking on the bright side! I've been busy on house renovations and living in a constant construction zone so I'm trying to get into some sort of schedule to balance everything out. I'm too all over the place most of the time to worry about myself and I need to make some changes.
It's my birthday week and Luke's on vacation, we're going to do some fun stuff around here. I'm excited!

I'm still obsessed with my phone and instagram newness..easy and fast, I love it! As much as I wanted an awesome designer case I ended up going the diy route(clear cheapie+leftover fabric) It's already saved my phone from multiple near disaster drops, and it's pretty cute.

Hope you have a great week!


Blythe said...

Lovely pictures! Cute brooches.


edgeindustrialphotography said...

sorry to hear you've been having a bad time
Krystle. it's a 21st century disease. the utter
*myth* that everyone (else) is doing completely
fine - and that to ask for any kind of help is a
sign of weakness.

got to admit Krystle. I am utterly
obsessed with the 3rd last photo.
I think it is my favourite photo ever.
I love what it implies. if it was a film
it would be this strong willed girl,
going off on a mission, to sort
something out. just perfect.

your photos evoke a dreamy, hazy
world you just want to live in. and
as for your music taste ...

Jennifer said...

Very cute!

xo Jennifer


Jen said...

Thyroid problems are the worst. My father has Hashimoto's, my mother has Graves disease (and no thyroid now), and I have a reverse T3 level that's literally off the charts, but no clear diagnosis.

I've been feeling the same way you describe for a long time. It's like living underwater. You're not the only one.

Just remember: It's not your personality that's off. Just a bit of thyroid chemistry. For me, that's always a comforting thought.

Here's hoping you feel better soon.

<3 jen @ librarian tells all

Babylon said...

I've found an interesting quote:
"You (or your relatives) will have noticed a symmetrical, smooth swelling in the front of your neck. You may have had it for some years but thought it was just 'puppy fat'. . It is not tender, however, and does not usually cause difficulty in swallowing but you may experience a tight sensation in your neck.It isn't normally a problem appearance-wise -- quite the opposite as far as some people are concerned. For example, the great seventeenth and eighteenth century artists often added a goitre to the female figure to enhance her beauty!"