Monday, March 31, 2014

voyage of exploration

Let's rewind to autumn because I feel like that's where my head clung to the clouds and started dreaming of this place. It's haunted and inspired me for years, there is such a rich history here. Long ago the meltwaters from ancient glaciers formed the Illinois river and its network of snake-like streams. Windblown layers of dusty bedrock created the tall limestone bluffs that rose from the riversides. It was an Eden of sweeping prairies and dense forests. Rugged wilderness and warfare. Now a protected area, many of the sloping hills and valleys are Indian burial mounds. At least six different tribes lived in this place, in a much different time. Europeans first began exploring Illinois while searching for the ocean and met the Illini here at the confluence of two mighty rivers. It's named after the explorer Pere Marquette.

You know how we all have those weird dreams..I always wanted to travel to pivotal moments in time, and see what really happened. The underlying stories of the people involved, I love imagining history in a different way. Something about this past trip inspired me to really think about it, and learn everything I could. As soon as I got home I started filling up notebooks and over time my imagination created a pretty wild story drawn from the actual events. I'm such a nerd and I've always been interested in Native American culture. It probably stems from the fact that mom's convinced her great grandmother was a Cherokee named Littlefoot. Growing up Cahokia mounds was just a few miles away and we would take the short trip to see this natural beauty too, some of my favorite places to visit. 

  I couldn't even imagine ever writing anything seriously but it's something that I quite like doing for fun. An experiment in creativity if you will, it pushes me a bit outside of my comfort zone. I think that's what matters anyway, doing something that inspires you. Even if it's a silly dream or things that only you'll appreciate. Have a little fun with your life. This is where my mind has been when I stop thinking of anything else, grab my headphones, and write. Something I do just for me, for no other reason than to create. Usually at 3 am while watching old westerns and period pieces. It's nice to have a little escape from the every day. 


“No river can return to its source, yet all rivers must have a beginning”

Movies and books are my first love. Strong willed heroines and tales of heartsick love, obstacles, violence, I'm old fashioned like that. Historical romances, epics, westerns, when I was little I had a Dr. Quinn sized crush on Sully and Willow is one of my most watched movies of all time. Madmartigan?! Val was it. I still play out stories in my mind a la The Neverending Story. That Atreyu effect. I just love the visualization and feeling from seeing it unfold and hearing the music, music is everything. I feel like I know my characters, If only in the movie of my mind. I love each of them as artist and they couldn't fit more perfectly into my storyline. Anyway, I've listened to a lot of Bon Iver and Rose Windows this winter, and I've been feeling angsty.
My dream soundtrack and cast.

like father, like..

Nikki Reed
Mads Mikkelsen
-watch "A Royal Affair" and "Valhalla Rising "

Tatanka Means
Gil Birmingham

Eddie Spears

Wes Studi

Christoph Waltz
Charlie Hunnam

Thursday, March 27, 2014

winter's end

I can't believe that winter is finally over! Bring on the blossoms and sunshine. These cold weather months weren't so bad..I vegged out with hulu and Netflix, made way too many treats, tried to keep plants alive, a little antiquing, my 28th birthday, and some big home projects.

put a plant in it.

Working on building my own butcher block countertops! IKEA won't be in stl for another year and I can't wait any longer. I was all Floyd from 30 rock when I first heard we were getting one..
  "yeah I'll believe it when I see it. We've just been burned before." 

snow cat

It snowed so much here in the Midwest..if ever I complained about the lack of fluffy stuff it more than made up for it this year. Like mountains of it.
That meant plenty of time inside to catch up on old books, this Othello copy is almost 100! Also discovered some of grandma Betty's photos, love that the little fox logo looks like my fleet fox .
And a new amethyst for this aquarian.

Finally found my dream twin peaks rug..only 30$ from rugs USA.
Free shipping too.

Hope your winter was a good one!

Saturday, March 8, 2014


if i am lost it's only for a little while..

I'm still here.
We've just been hibernating.
Whew! You know how when you don't do something for a while it becomes this thing, and you just don't know how to jump back in or something keeps getting in the way..this is that post. haha
 I totally didn't mean to go so long without an update, work and a polar vortex thwarted my plans. Seriously, I wish I didn't know what that meant. Winter's are always rough for me but it has been the coldest of my life, I swear! The holidaze went by in a flash and I'm still catching up.
We're all ecstatic for the warmer weather!


 giant little animals to feed

 cotton candy
I hope your 2014 is going great!